Sorry for the delay! I’m keeping my comments logged so I can go a chapter at a time with them.
CHAPTER 1:
God, I almost forgot how much of a dbag Old Zach is. You write him so well. Cmon Big Z, nosy much? Ya never heard of nunya?!
Dean! Naughty thoughts in front of the boss? Daddy? Really?! You bad boy..teehee
Entire world. Damn, my heart.
God, Zachariah is such a bag of dicks.
Woah. Hold up! Scene change…who needs a soft transition anyway? Not this gal! Hehehe
Aww man…poor Dean…guilt does not become you, sweetheart.
Mmmm bossy Castiel…so bossy. So dom. Make my insides go brrrrrrr
His despair is breaking my heart. Poor Dean…
Aww sweet, Cas, there you go, honey.
Aww Dean, baby…poor thing’s all in knots. He’s so in love.
And Cas…understanding…the sexuality talk. This is perfect. So true. God, I know that pain.
“The gift that keeps on giving.” *gigglesnort*
HOT HOT HOT YESS
HAHAHA THE SOCKS!
A perfect finish for a perfect emotional seesaw of a chapter, and such a fantastic start! 😀
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 2:
Cas, I know. Spectacular indeed. You’re drooling in public, hun (not that anyone could blame him). 😉
Uh oh Cas…better watch your gaze. Suspicion? Gulp. Cue anxiety.
Oohooo jealousy, Cas…oh this whole scene with the crew…pins and needles – and here comes Dean – smooth, man. Smooth! 😉
Uh oh boys…methinks Jesse knows.
Love the back and forth in this scene. Can picture it and feel the tension.
Sonofabitch! Espionage! Oh man oh man, now we’re cooking with gas. I’m outraged on their behalf, but the suspension and emotional investment here is stellar.
Oh poor, sweet Dean.
Oh oh Anna smooth!! *applause*
Whew! That was bloody intense but it really sets the stage for the story to kick off – with multiple issues for our boys.
Invested? Hell yes.
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 3:
Have I mentioned before how much I love the addition of the blend of Spanish with the English? A lot of writers I’m sure would skip it, but I love the challenge you took on here of including it, and how you weave it in beautifully, allowing non-speakers a chance to understand via context as well as offering a translation in a way that works with the dialogue so well (ie Alejandro understanding that his friends may not understand and being free with explanations). Anyway…love that!
Also the fact he gets the bond between Dean and Cas. It’s perfect. Ahhh Alex…beautiful. my heart. 🙂
Annnd he calls them idiots! Yes! Haha! Love it.
BAHAHA yeah Alex. He didn’t know about the D, but now he does! 😉 LOL
Ohhhh oh poor Cas…sweetheart… *sigh*
Ahhh Dean perfect timing! And so sweet (if a little inapropes lol) to defend his amor. 😀
Dean turning strangers into family…perfection. so true. And the metaphor here is so…so fitting. 🙂
Aww such a lovely ending to a sweet chapter. Love it, and oh how I adore their love. 😀
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 4:
HAHA Cas, you dirty boy. You just had to mark your territory, huh? (This is me totally not judging) 😉
Uh Jess…you realize Sam’s a bottomless pit, right? Lol
Oof Dean. Foot in mouth? Save it for the waffle ya dingus. Lol
Jess…oh you marvelous woman. LOL nice play here. Love it.
Oh oh my here we go. Flashback! Oh Sam…you naughty, naughty boy. Hot damn that imagery is delicious. And Jess here – man, have I mentioned how marvelous she is? Sam, you insanely lucky man. I am green with envy. Hot damn.
Just…jesus, mary and joseph and the wee baby donkey…*I* need that freezing shower now! LOL 😀
Ha! She said it! Told her! Bottomless! Lol
Hehehe Cas…nice play. Take the compliment *gigglesnort* awwww I’m chuckling and awwing at the same time. This chapter is *chef’s kiss* 😀
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 5
First off, I love so much that Anna cares enough to do this for him and talk to Cas about this stuff and ease his worries. *soft*
“Constantly!” *gigglesnorts*
“YOU PERV!” *dies of laughter*
The best thing… oh my goodness. Heart eyes right here. Just pow! *so soft* god I love these boys.
And we are right back to chuckling again. I just adore this whole exchange. It’s perfect. Biting the eggroll. I snorted because I’ve absolutely done this sort of thing with my husband and his mock horror is hilarious. So of course I can picture this. Great stuff!
Aww it finds its way from funny to sweet and back again. Have I mentioned how much I love this scene for its simple *realness*? Because I do.
“You’re perfect.” God, my heart.
“HELP!”
Bahahaha. Perfect. 10/10. No notes. Just warm fuzzies and a whole lot of giggles. 😀
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 6
I love the setup to this one because if I didn’t know the Cas in this story so well, I might miss exactly what this is leading toward and the context as it relates to the chapter’s title. The Metallica blaring – first from the stereo and then from the headphones, Cas’ nervousness and Dean’s sweet, gentle patience here are all connected and set the stage for a scene that’s so much more than what it seems.
So sweet. So beautiful. Sexy, but poignant. It’s fire without the burn – just that warm, comforting glow of coziness.
Ahhh the love on his face pushing him over that precipice. Ah perfect.
“I’m here sweetheart…” oh my heart!!! “You’ll never face this alone again…” I swear you’re trying to make cry already dammit. (And I love you for it.)
And back to sentimental with the right amount of spice! So proud of both of our boys here.
Worship, vow, promise, agony… **everything**
If you need me I’ll just be over here trying to stuff my heart back in my chest. This? Oh, it’s just raining on my face.
I love everything about this chapter. Feels train done run my ass over and I ain’t even mad about it. 🙂
Sam having a typical little brother moment here for sure. As an older sibling with parents who will jump me for going radio silent, this whole scene setup and build was so real.
Uh oh. Moment of truth. Go for it Dean. You’ve got this.
Ha! Nailed it, Bobby! (To think Dean thought he coulda hid that from him!) Lol
And now Uncle Bobby steps in with that dad energy. The grilling. Oh this whole part of an exchange we only hear one side of – it’s just so real…so relatable for that. Almost feel bad for Dean here, but I chuckled.
Oh good for you, Dean-O. (But also, sorry not sorry, flashback to The Little Mermaid here for me. “Daddy I LOVE him!”) Thank you for that.
Uh oh, here we go. As much as I want to be irritated with Bobby on their behalf, I can’t really be mad at him for what he says here. He’s basically dad. He’s gonna protect his boys. You can’t blame him for taking a crack at Cas here, but man, the tension is palpable.
*sir* oh he busted out the sir. Cas comin in hot. Oh POW with that sarcasm line.
“I no longer believe I am flawed.” Cas going in full Rocky Balboa and I am HERE for it! *punches air*
NOT A PHASE. YA GODDAMN RIGHT. sorry lol got a little amped up there
*sir!* POWRIGHTINTHEKISSER
Ahhh good on Sam here for stepping in. Return of the good little brother. And well done on Bobby’s end for taking it well and realizing what he’d done. Poor Sam suddenly trying to do the math. And Bobby manning up to his mistake. And Sam speaking up for them. Oh yeah. This is good stuff.
“Two days?!” *gulp* man do I know that sudden oh shit moment real well.
Ahhh holding hands. This is the good stuff too. Ahh, Cas, my sweet, protective man. Sofffft.
“Except give you up.” Bang. Right to the heart. “Come hell or high water.” This is SO classic Dean stubborness, and even more classic… the “dowry” crack here is perfect. Lol
AHHHAHAHA WET WILLY lmao
And here comes Sam to drop the bombshell. Cue the oh shit moment again.
Oh yes. Dean stepping in here and setting boundaries. You love to see it. “My man” *snorts*
“A load of horseshit.” You tell him, baby. Ahh Dean is in fine form here.
And Sam bring us back to the food. Classic.
“Ass stench” lmfao! Hahaha
“Dirty pool!” Lol
“Shaddap, Sam!”
I’m giggling hard right now.
Pfffft lol big bro moment. Lol
And this next scene just went from awwwww *soft* to ahhhhh spicyyyyy yesss.
Ohhhh maaaan bossy Cas make brain go *brrr*
“This song is mine and mine alone…” Hnnnng I need a moment. Christ. 😀 *fans self*
And now *domestic* Destiel and I am *loving* it.
Awww this speech about Dean finding beauty and wonder all around him is just….glorious and so so perfect.
Ohhhh ouch. The word. He can’t…oh my aching heart! This whole scene is just so gutwrenching. So exquisitely painful and yet so right for who they are. Dean’s confession – the grief and fear and the desperation he feels to say it but the fear….Ahhh :'( And oh, poor, sweet Cas. This is so gorgeous. And capped off with sweet, beautiful passion. Oh, I’m a mess.
And now this scene with Sam. So…so good. And Dean of course being a typical big brother. Gold. Ups and downs but mostly ups, and a lovely way to cap it off with a glimpse into Sam’s enjoyable evening. Loved this chapter!
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 8
“Coping strategy” *snorts* yeah that’s one way to put it, Cas. But maybe TMI for your group??? Lol And of course Dean’s mind went right in the gutter too. Told you. Coded. Lmfao
Ha! Poor Sam. Lol. Oh Dear, here comes Dean’s trademark stubbornness. Your brat is showing, Dean-O. Lol oh Sam, you dork. This exchange is great. Oh ho…mention of the asshole and Dean’s gettin riled. I can’t say I blame him in the least. Oh ho ho ho….Dean’s awakened the beast. Hehehe. BWHAHA poor Sam! 😀 And he has just come face to face with *that* Castiel. Is it suddenly getting warm in here or what?! 😉 I am giggling at Sam’s predicament. This one was just delicious.
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 9
Ahh, poor Dean. (((Anxiety))) Cannot blame him at all for being a mess. It’ll be okay, honey. You’ll see. But of course the bad thoughts make it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Man, do I feel that. Annnd the thoughts turn…HAWT. hot damn. Yeah, Dean, you might wanna reel that in. Ope. Lol
Awww *his man*. And of course Cas lit up at the sight of him. And ohhhhh my heart. “I missed you today” doing all the work. These two just….yes. <3 🙂 omg they wore the same clothes as on their date. Oh I cannot. *heart explodes* 😀 This is like kid-in-a-candy-store levels of sweetness and I am living for it.
And oh dear, Sam…not again. Poor, Cas. And god how I love how in tune Dean is with him – stepping in immediately. Ever the caregiver. Well done, man.
And here…we…go. introductions. Moment of truth. Dean comin right out of the gate no shame. Boyfriend. The gauntlet thrown. And Bobby…well done. Not 100% an apology, but moving in the right direction. And oh ho ho! Bobby sees somethin he likes…or someone…hehe. (Anybody here cupid wings by chance??) 😉 Haha y'all have fun flirting and whatnot. Sam's here to EAT boys. 😀
Ahh poor Dean's buzzing but Cas is at the wheel now. Ha! The adult in the room. And now Bobby diving right in full tilt. Oof. Off to a bit of a rocky start, but he's getting there. Awwww YES. FOUND FAMILY. *cheers* oh Bobby, you lovely but aggravating coot, quit stumblin and get there would ya?
There it is. Ah, sweet relief. A smile and an understanding at last. (Though chuckling at Sam and Dean here for sure lol) Oh, this confession is everything. My hearrrrt. "Dean saved me." (Who's cutting onions in here, man?!) Oh, poor, darling Cas, and Dean, oh so sweet here. Annnnd he knows just how to break the tension with levity. Happy ending.*snort laughs*
John Winchester I still hate you.
Oh, poor Cas. My sweet man.
"Well go after him, idgit…" Hallelujah, Bobby! Preach it! *cheers* YES. YOU HEARD HIM DEAN. SCOOT!
Ohhhh my boys. My heart. This is… I'm chuckling thru the tears. "I'm so frigging gay for you." So classic Dean. :')
And that ending… "not with sorrow…not anymore…" My heart is full. This was a whole rollercoaster of emotion and I am in tears. But that's a good thing, I promise. <3
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 10 (The Morning After)
Ah yes, the morning after…oh, Cas, honey, a post-sobfest hangover is even worse than the drinking kind. Combine the two and well…oof.
And Dean nails it. He knowwwws.
“Say it.” How do I get chills and melt at the same time?! “I’m all in.” *am now puddle. Send help* “need to taste you” *faints*
From sweet to sultry and oh my but it is divine…
“Say it.” Again, I am undone. Gahhh that is so hot and beautiful and sad and amazing all at once.
And this chapter is short but oh my god so sweet I can’t take it and yet I am anxious for more deliciousness…
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 11 (The Cowboy Room Redux)
*bounces in anticipation from the title alone*
“The Dean I glimpsed this morning” [insert high pitched squee noise here] “I’ll be waiting.” Omg. Yes, Dean, it means that. Better bring your game face and get ready. Eeeee
Cas, you naughty boy…Oh. My. Fuck.
Ha! Dean, that’s what I said. Lol. Gahdamn. Hot. Better skedaddle, man! Hehe! Oh man, and he just lays his cards out, and Anna…now that’s best friend shit right there! Yesss!
“…a heist” omg *gigglesnorts* I love Anna in this.
Run baby run…your sweetheart is waiting, cowboy! 😉
Awww. Reset and yet still hot. Somehow hotter because they *understand* one another. Yes, Cas, you asked for *this* Dean. Oh, good job guys. Using words. My hearrt. Oh this is so sweet and hot and I… *swallows hard and fans self*
Oh Dean, you naughty cowboy. *kink reactivated* hehehe “You got it, sweetheart.” I am goo right now, maaaan. 😀
“And you.” *explodes into a ball of hearts* AHHHHHH omg!!!!!!! *collapses*
“Howdy Partner” *rolls around giggling* yassss here we go….
*chokes* Cowpoke Adonis?! DEAD. I AM DEAD I SAY. OMG.
Hot hot hot hot ahhhhh carolina reaper ain’t got nothin on this cause hot damn
DARLIN! AGHHHHHNNNGGG
Aww hot and sweet and hot and fluff and I am undone, I tell you. Ahhh :’) “Darlin” again…oh my heart!! :’) “I need you…” !!!!@@%/=$^/$:&/$”#!! *glitches out*
“Worth obeying for” I died, was resurrected and instantly died again. HAWWWWT
“You’re my present.” I can’t take it. It’s just soo sooo….fuck I’m a mess…
The satin th…omg
“Ride bareback in the cowboy room” Did somebody just light a fire in here or what?! Omfg hnnnng
Soffffffft. *exploding heart emojis everywhere*
Annnnd close it out with an absolute inferno of heat. Just…
This chapter was fiiiiire. 😀
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 12 (The Watering Hole)
I love this opener – this little moment of Dean basically having a sidebar with himself. That part about hurting so much…owww. But the way it closes with the anticipation of teasing Cas…that is tasty. 😉
Oh live music and dancing? This is gonna be good…
Oh maaaan Cas is sporting the jeans?! Mmmm, Dean, you gotta get yourself together, honey. Now who’s the one being the tease? 😀
And oh the flirting commences! 😀
“…you damn well better be prepared…” oh my fuckinhawtyessahhhh hnnng *squeals*
Uh oh. The Dom Brow. Dean, you done did it now. Sir is right. It’s all Castiel now. Oh maaaan… *fans self*
“I need you…” *chills* Oh. Uh oh. That sounded like Cas indeed. Hurry, Dean.
*gulp* Not the cowboy room…the pool table… *shivers with anticipation*
“Sweetheart…” oh my hearrrt. <3 :') Oh Cas, my beloved…and Dean just being perfect here. *exploding hearts everywhere* God this is so sweet and heartbreaking and beautiful. This…the dancing. I am undone. It's cloud fluff. "He wanted to give this man everything, the entire world…" Oh my godddd. <3
That scene. Whew. I need a minute. *clutches heart* just…gorgeous.
And on to the next…and Sam's sweet with the pizza sharing, but now it's 3rd degree time. Hoo, boy…
"Gross, but go on…" *snort laugh*
Oh, poor Dean…dropping this info. "I don't know. I can't ask." Man, that sound you hear is my heart breaking like glass.
AWWW SAAAAAM. *i wanna just hug this sweet boy* that's grade A good brother stuff right there.
"Because he's the boss of you." HAHAHA POW THERE IT IS. Low blow, Sammy! Dirty pool!! XD
"Gross!" BWAHAHA
"AUTHORITAH" *dies in peals of laughter*
Ahhh this scene with Jason is lovely. "He's already a work of art standing still, but when he moves…" ahhh yes, Cas, I get it, love. :') awww "you two are the real deal." Jason gets it. Awww friendssss. <3
"At least the kid has great taste." *gigglesnort* oh, right you are, Jason! Lol
Closing sweet and then oh ho ho…*naughty thoughts* nobody's business, indeed, Castiel. 😉 😀
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 13 (The War Room)
Oh man, what a way to get this one started…Alistair…that mfer… *seethes* oof…Dean getting testy. I can *feel* his anxiety and totally get his reaction here. Ahh he disassociates here…anything to not have to think about that… poor Dean.
Suggestions, huh. Ok Cas, whatcha got??? *splutters* right outta the gate with death threats, huh?! That’s my boy! Lol “your divine ass…” *absolutely just lost my shit btw* LMAO “GUYS.” ahhh poor Sam *giggles* I really do get his frustration here but I feel so bad for Dean just reliving it in this discussion and the dread of what’s to come. It sucks.
HAHAHA “EYE FUCKING.” DRINK! XD
And bam – Sam hits em like the good idea fairy and then has abscond with food. Lol “eye-fucking to the endzone…touchdown” I am rolling. Lmfao and hot but also lmao
EYEFUCKING AGAIN TAKE ANOTHER DRINK!
“without a blindfold.” *choking noises. Gasps for air* HAHA POOR SAM *wheezing* 😀
“Whatever it is heterosexuals do, there’s a good lad.” Dead. I am dead. The sound I just made wasn’t human. Ahhhhh *wheeze. Keels over* XD
“At least they’re happy though” AWWWW SAAAAM but also hehe you naughty boy 😀
Loved this chapter. I laughed so damn hard my ribs and my face hurt. I fucking love you for writing them so goddamned….perfect. <3
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 14 (Fluff and Fold)
Ahhh this chapter. I’m pretty sure I’ve read it 3 or 4 times already and here I am diving in yet again because it is just too damn good not to. 😀
Dean with an ‘eek! Modesty!’ Moment here is just priceless. *snickers* *le gasp* it’s a girl! Lol Cas, you dirty dawg you. Hickeys…hehehe proud of his handiwork. 🙂
Jess, I freakin love you. Got that boy in hand. Hehe. All the waffles he can eat, huh? Girl, you’re gonna be cooking a while lol. Oof, Dean, you idgit…but Jess just handles it like a pro. Nicely done. And ‘girly things’ doesn’t phase Dean. Haha
How could that have happened indeed? *giggles*
Oh sarah you naughty girrrl…and Sam, ever the gracious one, offering to help like a gentleman…hehe 😉 oh jess, you absolute wonder of a woman…god this is hot, and these three are perfect…just *chefs kiss*
Annnd yanked right back into the present. Saaaam better be careful reminiscing in this setting hehe
Ooooh Jess, I love it. Girl after my own bi heart here. 😉 “our boyfriend” hehe. Seriously can’t blame the poor guy for sprinting across that finish line because my god is this hot and holy shiiiit it just got hotter. JESS I LOVE YOU. Haawwwwwt
And snapped right back. Oh, Cas, you slyyyy dog, I know exactly what you’re up to here… 😀
HAHAHA “Take the compliment, Dean.” Lmao TOP TEN! AHHHH ROFL XD
Man, Cas is so, so good at this and handles this so well. Sam, you are a lucky man, indeed.
Oh ho ho, Jess, you minx! Just bam! Right into it! Lol
HAHAHA Outstanding! Loved that parting shot! Loved this whole chapter! Hot and funny and heartwarming. <3
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 15 (Take Me to Church)
Oh opening right up with the sexy time! Yesss…and blindfold? Score on the hotness meter! 😀 Awww…poor Dean having some trouble, so nice that Cas is so in tune…so understanding. Ahh yes…the toys. Oh the mental image here is so…deliciously sinful 😉
*plenty* hehehehe smooth, Dean.
“Show me.” Ooooohhhh *chills* 😀
And this builds hotter and hotter and yet here we also have a divinely intimate moment. Not just sexiness but *love*. I am in rapture. Seriously. :’) <3 "a sacrament…" god this is perfection, I swear. "…making itself a home there…" MY HEARRRT. "Oh, I *am* the only man…" MY HEART HAS EXPLODED. RIP ME. :'D
Insanely hot indeed! AHHH fiiiiire and yet one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. I am giddy and flustered AND crying. <3 :'D
Omg…"Dean's lovr a living, breathing force…" I am a MESS. :'D
AND THAT CLOSING SENTENCE DESERVES A GODDAMN PULITZER. *Standing ovation*
I am undone. I am a weepy, flustered, emotional mess and I LOVE it.
God this chapter is just…ECSTASY. <3
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 15 (Hands Off Dick)
Sidebar: when I realized what chapter was next, I decided I needed a short breather after finishing that last one. Bask in that glorious high for a little longer before tackling the plunge into this next part. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE your rollercoasters. But I needed to carch my breath for just a minute or two. And now onto this one.
Here we go. Battle cologne on. Game face on. It’s time to go to war. Once more unto the breach, right? You can do this, Dean. You’ve got this…*deep breath*
“Give him dad on a shitty day…” YES, DEAN, THERE YOU GO. TO WAR, SOLDIER, then bring you…the real you…home to Cas. <3
"This fine ass isn't for your eyeballs, dickwad." YES DEAN. THERE YOU GO. He is handling this like a PRO. Seriously, Alistair is such a damn creep. *heebie jeebies*
"Over my boyfriend" *snorts* nice one. 😉
Everything Dean is doing here…both physically and verbally…turning the tables on this creeper…it's just so damn poetic. "Sno-cone of malice" OH I LOVE THAT. And he is absolutely going for it here, and it is WORKING. Yes! *punches the air* calling him out so soooo well.
BECAUSE OUR MAN STANDS ON BUSINESS, that's how he knows, ya damn creeper! Hiyahh! And he tries to cry victim – deny deny – play it off as an accident, but Dean isn't stupid. He knows the game, and he didn't come here to play. Yesss…Christ…ewww… he did! Ugh! Alright, Dean, go for the jugular.
"Duress negates consent, motherfucker…" YES! A-FUCKIN-MEN! GET HIS ASS!
YES! LITTLE BROTHER IN THE FBI VAN lol
HA! The Ferris Bueller quote. Magnificent.
Oh man oh man, that whole scene was chefs kiss epic. And now this one, with the bus boy…oh my god, this is so damn good.
And the escape. All that tension sweeping in…the adrenaline subsiding…the crash looms ahead…good on Sam here for the backup. And the texts with Cas…being ready to swoop in to support…just perfect.
Man oh man…this one wasn't just a dip but a whole damn loopdie-loop. Whew!
TAKE THAT CREEPER. Dean marches off the battlefield victorious. I fucking love it.
Vampire Lestat
1 year ago
CHAPTER 16 (A Bottle of Bourbon)
And now here it comes…the post adrenaline crash. The dip. The plunge. Hang onto your butts, boys…
Aww…sweet, loving, kind, thoughtful Cas…I don’t think he’s gonna talk, honey, but it’s worth it to try.
“Mnot for him” Exactly. Don’t worry, Dean. It’s okay.
“YOU WHAT” Yeah, Cas…ummm…hoo boy, here we go… uh oh…Cas, you might wanna dial it back…
“M’yours. B’long to you. Gave you *me*” Cas, you know what he means. His heart, his body, his soul…his *love* it’s yours and only yours. Maaaaan. Who’s cuttin onions?
“For fuckin ever” You tell him, baby. Make him believe it.
“My dad.” “Oh my god” BAM! Lol and man oh man, that bastard didn’t know what him. Looks like John Winchester was good for something huh? The bastard… anyway…
“Profane” man, Dean, for someone in his cups, you sure nailed that…poetically.
“Okay if I’m on my baaack…” oh man oh man who turned on the HEAT?! 😀
Sorry for the delay! I’m keeping my comments logged so I can go a chapter at a time with them.
CHAPTER 1:
God, I almost forgot how much of a dbag Old Zach is. You write him so well. Cmon Big Z, nosy much? Ya never heard of nunya?!
Dean! Naughty thoughts in front of the boss? Daddy? Really?! You bad boy..teehee
Entire world. Damn, my heart.
God, Zachariah is such a bag of dicks.
Woah. Hold up! Scene change…who needs a soft transition anyway? Not this gal! Hehehe
Aww man…poor Dean…guilt does not become you, sweetheart.
Mmmm bossy Castiel…so bossy. So dom. Make my insides go brrrrrrr
His despair is breaking my heart. Poor Dean…
Aww sweet, Cas, there you go, honey.
Aww Dean, baby…poor thing’s all in knots. He’s so in love.
And Cas…understanding…the sexuality talk. This is perfect. So true. God, I know that pain.
“The gift that keeps on giving.” *gigglesnort*
HOT HOT HOT YESS
HAHAHA THE SOCKS!
A perfect finish for a perfect emotional seesaw of a chapter, and such a fantastic start! 😀
CHAPTER 2:
Cas, I know. Spectacular indeed. You’re drooling in public, hun (not that anyone could blame him). 😉
Uh oh Cas…better watch your gaze. Suspicion? Gulp. Cue anxiety.
Oohooo jealousy, Cas…oh this whole scene with the crew…pins and needles – and here comes Dean – smooth, man. Smooth! 😉
Uh oh boys…methinks Jesse knows.
Love the back and forth in this scene. Can picture it and feel the tension.
Sonofabitch! Espionage! Oh man oh man, now we’re cooking with gas. I’m outraged on their behalf, but the suspension and emotional investment here is stellar.
Oh poor, sweet Dean.
Oh oh Anna smooth!! *applause*
Whew! That was bloody intense but it really sets the stage for the story to kick off – with multiple issues for our boys.
Invested? Hell yes.
CHAPTER 3:
Have I mentioned before how much I love the addition of the blend of Spanish with the English? A lot of writers I’m sure would skip it, but I love the challenge you took on here of including it, and how you weave it in beautifully, allowing non-speakers a chance to understand via context as well as offering a translation in a way that works with the dialogue so well (ie Alejandro understanding that his friends may not understand and being free with explanations). Anyway…love that!
Also the fact he gets the bond between Dean and Cas. It’s perfect. Ahhh Alex…beautiful. my heart. 🙂
Annnd he calls them idiots! Yes! Haha! Love it.
BAHAHA yeah Alex. He didn’t know about the D, but now he does! 😉 LOL
Ohhhh oh poor Cas…sweetheart… *sigh*
Ahhh Dean perfect timing! And so sweet (if a little inapropes lol) to defend his amor. 😀
Dean turning strangers into family…perfection. so true. And the metaphor here is so…so fitting. 🙂
Aww such a lovely ending to a sweet chapter. Love it, and oh how I adore their love. 😀
CHAPTER 4:
HAHA Cas, you dirty boy. You just had to mark your territory, huh? (This is me totally not judging) 😉
Uh Jess…you realize Sam’s a bottomless pit, right? Lol
Oof Dean. Foot in mouth? Save it for the waffle ya dingus. Lol
Jess…oh you marvelous woman. LOL nice play here. Love it.
Oh oh my here we go. Flashback! Oh Sam…you naughty, naughty boy. Hot damn that imagery is delicious. And Jess here – man, have I mentioned how marvelous she is? Sam, you insanely lucky man. I am green with envy. Hot damn.
Just…jesus, mary and joseph and the wee baby donkey…*I* need that freezing shower now! LOL 😀
Ha! She said it! Told her! Bottomless! Lol
Hehehe Cas…nice play. Take the compliment *gigglesnort* awwww I’m chuckling and awwing at the same time. This chapter is *chef’s kiss* 😀
CHAPTER 5
First off, I love so much that Anna cares enough to do this for him and talk to Cas about this stuff and ease his worries. *soft*
“Constantly!” *gigglesnorts*
“YOU PERV!” *dies of laughter*
The best thing… oh my goodness. Heart eyes right here. Just pow! *so soft* god I love these boys.
And we are right back to chuckling again. I just adore this whole exchange. It’s perfect. Biting the eggroll. I snorted because I’ve absolutely done this sort of thing with my husband and his mock horror is hilarious. So of course I can picture this. Great stuff!
Aww it finds its way from funny to sweet and back again. Have I mentioned how much I love this scene for its simple *realness*? Because I do.
“You’re perfect.” God, my heart.
“HELP!”
Bahahaha. Perfect. 10/10. No notes. Just warm fuzzies and a whole lot of giggles. 😀
CHAPTER 6
I love the setup to this one because if I didn’t know the Cas in this story so well, I might miss exactly what this is leading toward and the context as it relates to the chapter’s title. The Metallica blaring – first from the stereo and then from the headphones, Cas’ nervousness and Dean’s sweet, gentle patience here are all connected and set the stage for a scene that’s so much more than what it seems.
So sweet. So beautiful. Sexy, but poignant. It’s fire without the burn – just that warm, comforting glow of coziness.
Ahhh the love on his face pushing him over that precipice. Ah perfect.
“I’m here sweetheart…” oh my heart!!! “You’ll never face this alone again…” I swear you’re trying to make cry already dammit. (And I love you for it.)
And back to sentimental with the right amount of spice! So proud of both of our boys here.
Worship, vow, promise, agony… **everything**
If you need me I’ll just be over here trying to stuff my heart back in my chest. This? Oh, it’s just raining on my face.
I love everything about this chapter. Feels train done run my ass over and I ain’t even mad about it. 🙂
This one comes out by itself. It’s made of crystal that hasn’t shattered yet, y’know?
I feel that <3
CHAPTER 7
Sam having a typical little brother moment here for sure. As an older sibling with parents who will jump me for going radio silent, this whole scene setup and build was so real.
Uh oh. Moment of truth. Go for it Dean. You’ve got this.
Ha! Nailed it, Bobby! (To think Dean thought he coulda hid that from him!) Lol
And now Uncle Bobby steps in with that dad energy. The grilling. Oh this whole part of an exchange we only hear one side of – it’s just so real…so relatable for that. Almost feel bad for Dean here, but I chuckled.
Oh good for you, Dean-O. (But also, sorry not sorry, flashback to The Little Mermaid here for me. “Daddy I LOVE him!”) Thank you for that.
Uh oh, here we go. As much as I want to be irritated with Bobby on their behalf, I can’t really be mad at him for what he says here. He’s basically dad. He’s gonna protect his boys. You can’t blame him for taking a crack at Cas here, but man, the tension is palpable.
*sir* oh he busted out the sir. Cas comin in hot. Oh POW with that sarcasm line.
“I no longer believe I am flawed.” Cas going in full Rocky Balboa and I am HERE for it! *punches air*
NOT A PHASE. YA GODDAMN RIGHT. sorry lol got a little amped up there
*sir!* POWRIGHTINTHEKISSER
Ahhh good on Sam here for stepping in. Return of the good little brother. And well done on Bobby’s end for taking it well and realizing what he’d done. Poor Sam suddenly trying to do the math. And Bobby manning up to his mistake. And Sam speaking up for them. Oh yeah. This is good stuff.
“Two days?!” *gulp* man do I know that sudden oh shit moment real well.
Ahhh holding hands. This is the good stuff too. Ahh, Cas, my sweet, protective man. Sofffft.
“Except give you up.” Bang. Right to the heart. “Come hell or high water.” This is SO classic Dean stubborness, and even more classic… the “dowry” crack here is perfect. Lol
AHHHAHAHA WET WILLY lmao
And here comes Sam to drop the bombshell. Cue the oh shit moment again.
Oh yes. Dean stepping in here and setting boundaries. You love to see it. “My man” *snorts*
“A load of horseshit.” You tell him, baby. Ahh Dean is in fine form here.
And Sam bring us back to the food. Classic.
“Ass stench” lmfao! Hahaha
“Dirty pool!” Lol
“Shaddap, Sam!”
I’m giggling hard right now.
Pfffft lol big bro moment. Lol
And this next scene just went from awwwww *soft* to ahhhhh spicyyyyy yesss.
Ohhhh maaaan bossy Cas make brain go *brrr*
“This song is mine and mine alone…” Hnnnng I need a moment. Christ. 😀 *fans self*
And now *domestic* Destiel and I am *loving* it.
Awww this speech about Dean finding beauty and wonder all around him is just….glorious and so so perfect.
Ohhhh ouch. The word. He can’t…oh my aching heart! This whole scene is just so gutwrenching. So exquisitely painful and yet so right for who they are. Dean’s confession – the grief and fear and the desperation he feels to say it but the fear….Ahhh :'( And oh, poor, sweet Cas. This is so gorgeous. And capped off with sweet, beautiful passion. Oh, I’m a mess.
And now this scene with Sam. So…so good. And Dean of course being a typical big brother. Gold. Ups and downs but mostly ups, and a lovely way to cap it off with a glimpse into Sam’s enjoyable evening. Loved this chapter!
CHAPTER 8
“Coping strategy” *snorts* yeah that’s one way to put it, Cas. But maybe TMI for your group??? Lol And of course Dean’s mind went right in the gutter too. Told you. Coded. Lmfao
Ha! Poor Sam. Lol. Oh Dear, here comes Dean’s trademark stubbornness. Your brat is showing, Dean-O. Lol oh Sam, you dork. This exchange is great. Oh ho…mention of the asshole and Dean’s gettin riled. I can’t say I blame him in the least. Oh ho ho ho….Dean’s awakened the beast. Hehehe. BWHAHA poor Sam! 😀 And he has just come face to face with *that* Castiel. Is it suddenly getting warm in here or what?! 😉 I am giggling at Sam’s predicament. This one was just delicious.
CHAPTER 9
Ahh, poor Dean. (((Anxiety))) Cannot blame him at all for being a mess. It’ll be okay, honey. You’ll see. But of course the bad thoughts make it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Man, do I feel that. Annnd the thoughts turn…HAWT. hot damn. Yeah, Dean, you might wanna reel that in. Ope. Lol
Awww *his man*. And of course Cas lit up at the sight of him. And ohhhhh my heart. “I missed you today” doing all the work. These two just….yes. <3 🙂 omg they wore the same clothes as on their date. Oh I cannot. *heart explodes* 😀 This is like kid-in-a-candy-store levels of sweetness and I am living for it.
And oh dear, Sam…not again. Poor, Cas. And god how I love how in tune Dean is with him – stepping in immediately. Ever the caregiver. Well done, man.
And here…we…go. introductions. Moment of truth. Dean comin right out of the gate no shame. Boyfriend. The gauntlet thrown. And Bobby…well done. Not 100% an apology, but moving in the right direction. And oh ho ho! Bobby sees somethin he likes…or someone…hehe. (Anybody here cupid wings by chance??) 😉 Haha y'all have fun flirting and whatnot. Sam's here to EAT boys. 😀
Ahh poor Dean's buzzing but Cas is at the wheel now. Ha! The adult in the room. And now Bobby diving right in full tilt. Oof. Off to a bit of a rocky start, but he's getting there. Awwww YES. FOUND FAMILY. *cheers* oh Bobby, you lovely but aggravating coot, quit stumblin and get there would ya?
There it is. Ah, sweet relief. A smile and an understanding at last. (Though chuckling at Sam and Dean here for sure lol) Oh, this confession is everything. My hearrrrt. "Dean saved me." (Who's cutting onions in here, man?!) Oh, poor, darling Cas, and Dean, oh so sweet here. Annnnd he knows just how to break the tension with levity. Happy ending.*snort laughs*
John Winchester I still hate you.
Oh, poor Cas. My sweet man.
"Well go after him, idgit…" Hallelujah, Bobby! Preach it! *cheers* YES. YOU HEARD HIM DEAN. SCOOT!
Whew, boy! Bobby…Ellen…I smell something brewing here. 😉
Ohhhh my boys. My heart. This is… I'm chuckling thru the tears. "I'm so frigging gay for you." So classic Dean. :')
And that ending… "not with sorrow…not anymore…" My heart is full. This was a whole rollercoaster of emotion and I am in tears. But that's a good thing, I promise. <3
CHAPTER 10 (The Morning After)
Ah yes, the morning after…oh, Cas, honey, a post-sobfest hangover is even worse than the drinking kind. Combine the two and well…oof.
And Dean nails it. He knowwwws.
“Say it.” How do I get chills and melt at the same time?! “I’m all in.” *am now puddle. Send help* “need to taste you” *faints*
From sweet to sultry and oh my but it is divine…
“Say it.” Again, I am undone. Gahhh that is so hot and beautiful and sad and amazing all at once.
And this chapter is short but oh my god so sweet I can’t take it and yet I am anxious for more deliciousness…
CHAPTER 11 (The Cowboy Room Redux)
*bounces in anticipation from the title alone*
“The Dean I glimpsed this morning” [insert high pitched squee noise here] “I’ll be waiting.” Omg. Yes, Dean, it means that. Better bring your game face and get ready. Eeeee
Cas, you naughty boy…Oh. My. Fuck.
Ha! Dean, that’s what I said. Lol. Gahdamn. Hot. Better skedaddle, man! Hehe! Oh man, and he just lays his cards out, and Anna…now that’s best friend shit right there! Yesss!
“…a heist” omg *gigglesnorts* I love Anna in this.
Run baby run…your sweetheart is waiting, cowboy! 😉
C O W B O Y B O O T S *glitches out* 😀 😀
“That’s mine.” (I’m dead. Spread my ashes somewhere nice ok?) XD
Awww. Reset and yet still hot. Somehow hotter because they *understand* one another. Yes, Cas, you asked for *this* Dean. Oh, good job guys. Using words. My hearrt. Oh this is so sweet and hot and I… *swallows hard and fans self*
Oh Dean, you naughty cowboy. *kink reactivated* hehehe “You got it, sweetheart.” I am goo right now, maaaan. 😀
“And you.” *explodes into a ball of hearts* AHHHHHH omg!!!!!!! *collapses*
“Howdy Partner” *rolls around giggling* yassss here we go….
*chokes* Cowpoke Adonis?! DEAD. I AM DEAD I SAY. OMG.
Hot hot hot hot ahhhhh carolina reaper ain’t got nothin on this cause hot damn
DARLIN! AGHHHHHNNNGGG
Aww hot and sweet and hot and fluff and I am undone, I tell you. Ahhh :’) “Darlin” again…oh my heart!! :’) “I need you…” !!!!@@%/=$^/$:&/$”#!! *glitches out*
“Worth obeying for” I died, was resurrected and instantly died again. HAWWWWT
“You’re my present.” I can’t take it. It’s just soo sooo….fuck I’m a mess…
The satin th…omg
“Ride bareback in the cowboy room” Did somebody just light a fire in here or what?! Omfg hnnnng
Soffffffft. *exploding heart emojis everywhere*
Annnnd close it out with an absolute inferno of heat. Just…
This chapter was fiiiiire. 😀
CHAPTER 12 (The Watering Hole)
I love this opener – this little moment of Dean basically having a sidebar with himself. That part about hurting so much…owww. But the way it closes with the anticipation of teasing Cas…that is tasty. 😉
Oh live music and dancing? This is gonna be good…
Oh maaaan Cas is sporting the jeans?! Mmmm, Dean, you gotta get yourself together, honey. Now who’s the one being the tease? 😀
And oh the flirting commences! 😀
“…you damn well better be prepared…” oh my fuckinhawtyessahhhh hnnng *squeals*
Uh oh. The Dom Brow. Dean, you done did it now. Sir is right. It’s all Castiel now. Oh maaaan… *fans self*
“…that spectacular ass…” OH YES. *short circuiting*
“He *so* is.” *giggles* AH MY HEART.
“I need you…” *chills* Oh. Uh oh. That sounded like Cas indeed. Hurry, Dean.
*gulp* Not the cowboy room…the pool table… *shivers with anticipation*
“Sweetheart…” oh my hearrrt. <3 :') Oh Cas, my beloved…and Dean just being perfect here. *exploding hearts everywhere* God this is so sweet and heartbreaking and beautiful. This…the dancing. I am undone. It's cloud fluff. "He wanted to give this man everything, the entire world…" Oh my godddd. <3
That scene. Whew. I need a minute. *clutches heart* just…gorgeous.
And on to the next…and Sam's sweet with the pizza sharing, but now it's 3rd degree time. Hoo, boy…
"Gross, but go on…" *snort laugh*
Oh, poor Dean…dropping this info. "I don't know. I can't ask." Man, that sound you hear is my heart breaking like glass.
AWWW SAAAAAM. *i wanna just hug this sweet boy* that's grade A good brother stuff right there.
"Because he's the boss of you." HAHAHA POW THERE IT IS. Low blow, Sammy! Dirty pool!! XD
"Gross!" BWAHAHA
"AUTHORITAH" *dies in peals of laughter*
Ahhh this scene with Jason is lovely. "He's already a work of art standing still, but when he moves…" ahhh yes, Cas, I get it, love. :') awww "you two are the real deal." Jason gets it. Awww friendssss. <3
"At least the kid has great taste." *gigglesnort* oh, right you are, Jason! Lol
Closing sweet and then oh ho ho…*naughty thoughts* nobody's business, indeed, Castiel. 😉 😀
CHAPTER 13 (The War Room)
Oh man, what a way to get this one started…Alistair…that mfer… *seethes* oof…Dean getting testy. I can *feel* his anxiety and totally get his reaction here. Ahh he disassociates here…anything to not have to think about that… poor Dean.
Suggestions, huh. Ok Cas, whatcha got??? *splutters* right outta the gate with death threats, huh?! That’s my boy! Lol “your divine ass…” *absolutely just lost my shit btw* LMAO “GUYS.” ahhh poor Sam *giggles* I really do get his frustration here but I feel so bad for Dean just reliving it in this discussion and the dread of what’s to come. It sucks.
HAHAHA “EYE FUCKING.” DRINK! XD
And bam – Sam hits em like the good idea fairy and then has abscond with food. Lol “eye-fucking to the endzone…touchdown” I am rolling. Lmfao and hot but also lmao
EYEFUCKING AGAIN TAKE ANOTHER DRINK!
“without a blindfold.” *choking noises. Gasps for air* HAHA POOR SAM *wheezing* 😀
“Whatever it is heterosexuals do, there’s a good lad.” Dead. I am dead. The sound I just made wasn’t human. Ahhhhh *wheeze. Keels over* XD
“At least they’re happy though” AWWWW SAAAAM but also hehe you naughty boy 😀
Loved this chapter. I laughed so damn hard my ribs and my face hurt. I fucking love you for writing them so goddamned….perfect. <3
CHAPTER 14 (Fluff and Fold)
Ahhh this chapter. I’m pretty sure I’ve read it 3 or 4 times already and here I am diving in yet again because it is just too damn good not to. 😀
Dean with an ‘eek! Modesty!’ Moment here is just priceless. *snickers* *le gasp* it’s a girl! Lol Cas, you dirty dawg you. Hickeys…hehehe proud of his handiwork. 🙂
Jess, I freakin love you. Got that boy in hand. Hehe. All the waffles he can eat, huh? Girl, you’re gonna be cooking a while lol. Oof, Dean, you idgit…but Jess just handles it like a pro. Nicely done. And ‘girly things’ doesn’t phase Dean. Haha
How could that have happened indeed? *giggles*
Oh sarah you naughty girrrl…and Sam, ever the gracious one, offering to help like a gentleman…hehe 😉 oh jess, you absolute wonder of a woman…god this is hot, and these three are perfect…just *chefs kiss*
Annnd yanked right back into the present. Saaaam better be careful reminiscing in this setting hehe
Ooooh Jess, I love it. Girl after my own bi heart here. 😉 “our boyfriend” hehe. Seriously can’t blame the poor guy for sprinting across that finish line because my god is this hot and holy shiiiit it just got hotter. JESS I LOVE YOU. Haawwwwwt
And snapped right back. Oh, Cas, you slyyyy dog, I know exactly what you’re up to here… 😀
HAHAHA “Take the compliment, Dean.” Lmao TOP TEN! AHHHH ROFL XD
Man, Cas is so, so good at this and handles this so well. Sam, you are a lucky man, indeed.
Oh ho ho, Jess, you minx! Just bam! Right into it! Lol
HAHAHA Outstanding! Loved that parting shot! Loved this whole chapter! Hot and funny and heartwarming. <3
CHAPTER 15 (Take Me to Church)
Oh opening right up with the sexy time! Yesss…and blindfold? Score on the hotness meter! 😀 Awww…poor Dean having some trouble, so nice that Cas is so in tune…so understanding. Ahh yes…the toys. Oh the mental image here is so…deliciously sinful 😉
*plenty* hehehehe smooth, Dean.
“Show me.” Ooooohhhh *chills* 😀
And this builds hotter and hotter and yet here we also have a divinely intimate moment. Not just sexiness but *love*. I am in rapture. Seriously. :’) <3 "a sacrament…" god this is perfection, I swear. "…making itself a home there…" MY HEARRRT. "Oh, I *am* the only man…" MY HEART HAS EXPLODED. RIP ME. :'D
Insanely hot indeed! AHHH fiiiiire and yet one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. I am giddy and flustered AND crying. <3 :'D
Omg…"Dean's lovr a living, breathing force…" I am a MESS. :'D
AND THAT CLOSING SENTENCE DESERVES A GODDAMN PULITZER. *Standing ovation*
I am undone. I am a weepy, flustered, emotional mess and I LOVE it.
God this chapter is just…ECSTASY. <3
CHAPTER 15 (Hands Off Dick)
Sidebar: when I realized what chapter was next, I decided I needed a short breather after finishing that last one. Bask in that glorious high for a little longer before tackling the plunge into this next part. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE your rollercoasters. But I needed to carch my breath for just a minute or two. And now onto this one.
Here we go. Battle cologne on. Game face on. It’s time to go to war. Once more unto the breach, right? You can do this, Dean. You’ve got this…*deep breath*
“Give him dad on a shitty day…” YES, DEAN, THERE YOU GO. TO WAR, SOLDIER, then bring you…the real you…home to Cas. <3
"This fine ass isn't for your eyeballs, dickwad." YES DEAN. THERE YOU GO. He is handling this like a PRO. Seriously, Alistair is such a damn creep. *heebie jeebies*
"Over my boyfriend" *snorts* nice one. 😉
Everything Dean is doing here…both physically and verbally…turning the tables on this creeper…it's just so damn poetic. "Sno-cone of malice" OH I LOVE THAT. And he is absolutely going for it here, and it is WORKING. Yes! *punches the air* calling him out so soooo well.
BECAUSE OUR MAN STANDS ON BUSINESS, that's how he knows, ya damn creeper! Hiyahh! And he tries to cry victim – deny deny – play it off as an accident, but Dean isn't stupid. He knows the game, and he didn't come here to play. Yesss…Christ…ewww… he did! Ugh! Alright, Dean, go for the jugular.
"Duress negates consent, motherfucker…" YES! A-FUCKIN-MEN! GET HIS ASS!
YES! LITTLE BROTHER IN THE FBI VAN lol
HA! The Ferris Bueller quote. Magnificent.
Oh man oh man, that whole scene was chefs kiss epic. And now this one, with the bus boy…oh my god, this is so damn good.
And the escape. All that tension sweeping in…the adrenaline subsiding…the crash looms ahead…good on Sam here for the backup. And the texts with Cas…being ready to swoop in to support…just perfect.
Man oh man…this one wasn't just a dip but a whole damn loopdie-loop. Whew!
TAKE THAT CREEPER. Dean marches off the battlefield victorious. I fucking love it.
CHAPTER 16 (A Bottle of Bourbon)
And now here it comes…the post adrenaline crash. The dip. The plunge. Hang onto your butts, boys…
Aww…sweet, loving, kind, thoughtful Cas…I don’t think he’s gonna talk, honey, but it’s worth it to try.
“Mnot for him” Exactly. Don’t worry, Dean. It’s okay.
“YOU WHAT” Yeah, Cas…ummm…hoo boy, here we go… uh oh…Cas, you might wanna dial it back…
“M’yours. B’long to you. Gave you *me*” Cas, you know what he means. His heart, his body, his soul…his *love* it’s yours and only yours. Maaaaan. Who’s cuttin onions?
“For fuckin ever” You tell him, baby. Make him believe it.
“My dad.” “Oh my god” BAM! Lol and man oh man, that bastard didn’t know what him. Looks like John Winchester was good for something huh? The bastard… anyway…
“Profane” man, Dean, for someone in his cups, you sure nailed that…poetically.
“Okay if I’m on my baaack…” oh man oh man who turned on the HEAT?! 😀
The dead center of Dean’s entire universe…
Goddamn that was…beautiful. <3 :')